Hannah Grage: 2 Years Today

Sunday, April 8, 2012

2 Years Today

Today, April, 8th marks the day I found out Hannah has cancer. This could easily be a very sad day. Infact, the day before it, April 7th, is the real day, I found out. Only because that is the day I took her to the ER. Nothing has ever been the same. They told me in the night, technically, the 8th, that she had blasts (Leukemia cells) in her blood sample. I can feel the 7th coming. I will look at the calender for something routine and see April 7th, staring at me. That day is hard.

Hannah sledding this Spring Break. Always living life to the fullest!

April 8th, however, is the day the fight began. We celebrate that day. Our Hannah Grage, has been kicking cancer's behind for two years today!!! Her opponent is viscous, tricky, and smart. Hannah is ten million times better. Today, we toast to our own hero. I couldn't even begin to tell you what I have watched her endure and I wouldn't want to. She is tough as nails and I am so, so proud of her. Earlier in the day, her dad had a fantastic party for her, with her Nana and Opa there. They had cake and presents, all the things a celebration needs. Tonight, Rian and I took her and the crew along with our dear friends Anna, Aiden, and kids to her favorite restaurant to party it up. She got her presents and strawberry margarita (virgin, of course!). It was a blast. I have some news about her counts that will wait until tomorrow. Today, we are concentrating on the awesomeness that is our baby girl.

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AnonymousApril 9, 2012 at 10:34 AM
I am glad she had a wonderful day. She looks like she is having a blast sledding.

Let us know the updates.

Love to the whole fam!

Liz
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MugdhaApril 9, 2012 at 1:11 PM
Aww, yay! Celebrating is so important, I feel like. Congratulations to you and Hannah and the fam for making it two years and I will toast that (virgin) strawberry margarita to many many many more!!
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StefApril 9, 2012 at 4:55 PM
This is awesome. I loved this post! I can't get over how good she looks and I love her zest for life.

April 8th is the day I miscarried last year. Seems to just be a day for sad things :(
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dusty earth motherApril 10, 2012 at 7:46 PM
This post just made me happy. Love you guys.
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AnonymousApril 10, 2012 at 7:57 PM
Yes, your baby girl is awesome and I'm glad she had such a fun day!
~Rita
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I'm So FancyMay 6, 2012 at 12:08 AM
Well, it's not "happy anniversary" but you know what i mean. I love how you've turned it around, right down to the virgin margaritas!
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AnonymousMay 10, 2012 at 1:45 AM
This is so good to hear. I think about Hannah and your family everyday. She looks amazing in the picture where is sledding. She has come a long way. I use to work at the preschool at the YMCA and it is amazing how such a beautiful bright little girl can go through all of that and is just so tough though this whole battle. That is awesome she had a great day.
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How we got Cancer

I have two amazing, handsome, sweet, funny boys, Andrew, 13 and Aaron, 8 years old. After years of thinking I would never know what ballet lessons were like, I also had Hannah. She is four years old. My three kids are all I could ask for and more.

In January, Hannah had pneumonia. She never seemed like herself after that. She had random fevers, she was tired often, and her coloring was off. I kept taking her to the doctor thinking she had a virus or something but it never got all the way better. The people at her preschool were also noticing these symptoms. The director of her preschool, Deb, had even called me, thinking maybe she had mono. The doctors thought maybe it was a sinus infection and put her on medicine.

On April 7th, 2010 she had a tummy ache at school, when I came to get her, she seemed ok. As I was reading her bedtime story that night I noticed her stomach looked VERY distended. I thought, in all my thirteen years of parenting, I had not seen that before. I called her doctor and the nurse asked me how quickly I could be at Children's. Rian stayed with the boys and I left the house still not convinced I wasn't over reacting to some possible gas.

I should have known something was not right at the ER, because everyone was being really, really nice to Hannah and I. After they drew some blood the doctor came in and told Hannah that a nurse would stay with her so that Mommy could get her some juice. I walked out of the room really thinking I was being led to where the juice boxes were! They took me into another room where the doctor turned to me and said, "We are going to do a test, the results will be back in an hour, but we think your daughter has Leukemia. We believe she has cancer." I was busy dismissing her in my head as the over reacting one while she listed the symptoms Hannah displayed that made her suspect it. Her stomach was distended and not because of gas. Her liver and spleen were enlarged. Her frequent fevers and fatigue. My brain kicked in at this point, so I protested, suggesting that mono, could also be the cause of enlarged organs, fatigue, and fever. She agreed but firmly stated she thought it was Leukemia. I went back to our room, no juice, refusing to except any of that. Every time I thought, what if they come in and tell me it's cancer, I immediatly put it out of my head. I was sure it was going to be mono.

After the longest hour ever went by, Hannah had fallen asleep on my lap and the doctor came back in. She said she was afraid she had bad news. They rest of that night has blurred into the rush of trying to process the wall of information they give you and surpress the "I'm going to go crazy right here" emotion that was filling my head. I was determined not to be the mom that fell apart. I just wanted to learn so I could help.

My best friend, Mackenzie, at nine months pregnant, thank you very much, came to the hospital at 3 am with only the words, Hannah has Leukemia. Together, we walked Hannah into her new world called, the 3rd Floor Cancer Unit at Children's Hospital. Walking in past that sign and knowing that was where they were taking my sweet baby girl was one of the single worst moments of my life. I almost lost it, except, Abby, our fellow(thats an important Dr. title) was standing there waiting for us. I had stubbornly, already promised myself I wasn't going to be breaking down in front of the people that I am now depending on to save Hannah's life.

The next few days were full of horrific tests and information. When they came back with the spinal tap results that showed the type of Leukemia she had, I did finally lose it. She has Leukemia ALL, which is the one with the highest cure rate. So, it was good news. I don't know why, but to me it meant that she really did have cancer. I went into the hall, sat on the floor, and cried my eyes out. I just couldn't stop. I had been feeling like if we just left, if I picked up Hannah and ran, then none of this would be real.

What I found out, was that we are going to be ok, that there are funny, dear moments even when going through crappy chemo, and that we have a whole LOT of wonderful people in our lives. I thank God everyday for all of you and every precious moment I have on this earth with my family.

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